I awakened the next morning with the sun beaming on me as if to try to slap some sense into me. I quickly got up, took another shower.  I guess some of  the greatest thoughts and soul searching have come from the shower but this morning there was not a thought on my mind. I was numb! I mean numb! I just stood there and let the water run on me without a thought of if it was too hot or too cold. I didn’t care, I just knew that a shower was needed and it was needed now.  I put on my Jet black ...

Here I am picking up the phone to dial my boyfriend Greg. Yes, I had to do this I told myself. It has been too long and we haven’t moved to the next level yet. Is that being selfish? Is it what I really want? Wanting to be married….Heck, yes that is what I want but the question to ask is, what is taking him so long?  Here I thought that I had it all. A nice 6 foot 4 framed, light caramel colored, educated, working (full time I might add) man. He had a killer smile and many, MANY women sta...